"Reality is nothing but a fantasy"
The Rowan Brothers' song "All Together" courtesy of Clive Davis
UNDERSTANDING CHAOS IN OUR LIVES, the study of why things are not normal...
by Joe Viglione
11:27 PM June 15
OK, so gay marriage is really really law in Massachusetts. Have we gone down the rabbit hole? Now the Jay Severin's of the world get to say that "homosexuality is a disease" (Jimmy Severino a.k.a. "Jay Severin" on WTKK Boston, 96.9 3:40 PM on June 15, 2007). One would think after "Nappy Headed Ho" the "shock jocks" would watch their mouths, but Severin is desperate for attention. Who the heck decided that we have to even talk about "gay marriage?" When Paris Hilton's lawyers constructed that wonderful retort to all the media types who said she wasn't as newsworthy as those dying in Iraq and Afghanistan (only to pollute our airwaves with more distractions..."All Paris all the time"...) it all reached its zenith - we are living in an insane world. Frankly, I don't understand heterosexuality - maybe because I know so many closeted men who feel they have to have sex with women in order to fit into society.
Knowing so many men who are attracted to other men but who decide they are better off "playing it straight", well, I find it hideous that they would rather deny themselves and someone else (specifically me!) happiness while living an untruth, living some kind of nutty existence where alcohol becomes their escape. One fellow sleeps next to his wife night after night after night. They probably haven't had sex in twenty years and probably never will...but she adores him. It's kind of like Kate Jackson in the film "Making Love" getting to stay with Michael Ontkean and all their friends thinking they are the "perfect couple"...why? To satisfy the "religious right", so Ted Haggard and Mayor McGreevey can pantomine and play house?
C'est la vie...now another fellow I was involved with actually slept with his wife - as in, had sexual relations with her despite being actively gay (where the fellow above really slept with his wife...as in sleeping without the sex). I know both men were being truthful to me because they had no reason to do otherwise. I had become their sounding board, their confidant:
con fi dant
a close friend or associate to whom secrets are confided or with whom private matters and problems are discussed.
"What would happen if your wife found out about us?" I asked Person B
Person B: "She'd take my shotgun and shoot us both." Eeek.
Now Person A's wife would answer his phone and ...it was rather awkward at first but she really didn't have a problem giving him the line - knowing he was probably "seeing" (he was) the person on the other end of the phone. That's the fellow who hadn't had sex with her in two decades or so, the "perfect couple" that no one suspected had a marriage of convenience.
IT'S A HOMOSOCIAL WORLD
These are the men that the "Christian Right" want totally locked in the closet. Gay Marriage is going to change that. Not that all these guys feigning heterosexuality are going to drop their wives for a dude, that ain't never gonna happen (double negative intentionally employed)...but as the new twenty-somethings take control those who like being with their own kind (as in their own sex) are going to be less likely to hide in the priesthood or in a bad marriage. Since the Catholic Church doesn't deserve new priests, and since women should love men who are going to WANT to have sex with them and not be miserable laying next to them in a hollow bed for a few decades, well, in an insane world it is the sanest solution - our need to be homosocial.
"IN an insane world it was the sanest choice"
Linda Hamilton as Sarah Connor in Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991). ...
Imagine having a good looking Terminator to call your own like Robert Patrick. Could you imagine the potential in bed? The liquid terminator thing that can expand and change shape!
Like wow, Jim Morrison's "changeling" would be envious. The fact that Terminator II is playing on TV behind me as I prepare to run off and catch a midnight showing of Fantastic Four (Terminator2 is Silver Surfer without the board), well, these tv stations are rather clever.
But this essay is here to study chaos, of which the dictionary says:
cha·os /ˈkeɪɒs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[key-os] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.
2.
any confused, disorderly mass: a chaos of meaningless phrases.
3.
the infinity of space or formless matter supposed to have preceded the existence of the ordered universe.
A friend/colleague says that there is a "cosmic two year old" playing with us. I tend to agree with his theory, much to my spiritual advisor's chagrin. Did you ever think the land of the free would be infected by the Bush/Libby/DeLay/Cheney/Rove/Powell/Rice/Rumsfeld crowd?
It is a horror show, a real dark comedy that:
a)fails to make any sense and
b)we never saw coming
Did you really believe we'd stumble upon someone worse than Nixon? Bush I was bad enough but Bush II is like Alfred E. Newman from Mad Magazine with an itchy trigger finger. Eeeeek...
The Matrix makes more sense than anyone wants to admit. Remember that Outer Limits episode where 5 billion people were all condensed onto a wire? That was in the 1960s before "nanotechnology" came into vogue.
nan·o·tech·nol·o·gy (nān'ə-těk-nŏl'ə-jē) n. The science and technology of building devices, such as electronic circuits, from single atoms and molecules.
The universe being eternal - no time, no space, to beginning, no end, means that I have probably written this essay a few billion times - or billions and billions of times - eternity being forever we have all been in this prism forever and ever and ever, not start to finish, but up and down, sideways, in a circular motion for all time. Does the universe pat itself on the back for creating something "new" when everything has been said and done always and always? Are we the cosmic two year old playing John Lennon's "Mind Games"? Is the absurd the only thing we have to make us human and not like Arnold Shwarzenegger's unfeeling machine? Is the true "future" that of machines like Data in Star Trek: Next Generation, a machine that searches for its own soul? Is the universe a machine in the study of spirit to water to flesh? Is that why all the chaos is before us? So that we appreciate order? Or that we comprehend happiness?
Joe Viglione
11:49 PM June 15, 2007 But is it really 11:48 or 11:49 or is it a clock that just measures things for us so that we think time exists?
"I know why you cry, and it is something I can never do" Terminator 1 in Terminator 2 as he is leaving John Connor
Joe Vig on Sutherland Brothers & Quiver
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